《Stories》──齐豫

(独白)
I remember quite clearly now when the story happened
the autumn leaves were floating and measured down to the ground
recovering the lake where we used to swim like children
and the sun would dare to shine
that time,we used to be happy
well, I thought we were
but the truth was that -- you had been longing to leave me
not daring to tell me
on that precious night watching the lake vaguely conscious
you said our story was ending

now I'm standing here
no one to wipe away my tears
no one to keep me warm
and no one to walk along with
no one to make me feel
no one to make me whole
oh ! what am I to do ?
I'm standing here alone
it doesn't seem so clear to me
what am I supposed to do about this burning heart of mine
oh ! what am I to do ?
or how should I react ?
oh ! tell me please !

(独白)
the rain was killing the last days of summer
you had been killing my last breath of love
since a long time ago ......
i still don't think I'm gonna make it through another love story
you took it all away from me
and there I stand , I knew I was gonna be the ...
the one left behind
but still I'm watching the lake
vaguely conscious
and I know ----
my life is ending

now I'm standing here
no one to wipe away my tears
no one to keep me warm
and no one to walk along with
no one to make me feel
no one to make me whole
oh ! what am I to do ?
I'm standing here alone
it doesn't seem so clear to me
what am I supposed to do about this burning heart of mine
oh ! what am I to do ?
or how should I react ?
oh ! tell me please !
ha ----
ha ----

曾经很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢的一首歌。
其实更多的，是喜欢那首独白小诗。
起先并不知道是齐豫的歌。我先是在一堆英语学习材料里淘到这首诗，等我把它模仿得八九不离十的时候，才知道是截取至齐豫的这首《stories》。
这独白听得特别真切，好像就在耳边，轻轻地埋怨，浅浅地诉说。
“we used to be happy, well, I thought we were”，带上一种自我解嘲的笑，让人心疼得颤抖。
“I still don't think I'm gonna make it through another love story, you took it all away from me”，什么都被带走了，还有力气再去爱吗？
最后那句“and I know----my life is ending”，一个被离弃女人的孤单与无依，无奈与绝望。
齐豫有点沙哑，有点哽咽的声音，让我深陷其中，和她一起心痛。

记得上大学时，音乐欣赏课，被老师点名起来，用一句话概括对当代流行乐坛的感受。我说了一句：歌的好听程度与歌手的长相是成反比的。
那个时候这个结论肯定是有失偏颇的，却在课堂上掀起了轩然大波，整个课堂都开始细数历来的歌手。
比如高中时的任贤齐，刚出道的他，一首《心太软》，傻傻的洋葱鼻，让多少女生为之着迷。
比如赵传比如伍佰，大一有段时间疯狂地迷赵传，和一个哥们一起，几乎学会了他每一首歌。
比如王菲，在我眼里也是不漂亮的，却有她独特的气质。喜欢她慵懒不堪却清澈见底的声音，轻轻哼来，不经意地，却触到你心底。
比如学友，直到现在，学友仍然是我最爱的歌手。他肯定是不帅的，却是经久不衰的。
比如齐豫，我从来没有关注过她，因为这首歌，我才知道她是齐秦的姐姐，才知道是她唱了那首很经典的《橄榄树》。
比如......

没想到再听到这首歌，已经是在5年后的今天，这样一个雨夜，一时五味陈杂，往事翻涌。
曾经很喜欢的歌，也会逐渐被代替，曾经很喜欢的人，也会逐渐被忘记。这就是岁月走过的唯一证据。想像自己躺在河底，看日子潺潺从身上淌过，能留下些什么？我们曾经在意的，执意拥有的，又如何？不过是一首歌的距离。
“有没有那么一首歌
会让你轻轻跟着哼
牵动我们共同过去
记忆它不会沉默”
我想，每个人心里，都会有那样一首歌，突然牵动你所有的记忆，无法停息......